tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-250955592011-04-21T19:25:53.122-04:00Kendrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10781028446349364416noreply@blogger.comBlogger211100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25095559.post-1153247007884217072006-07-18T14:21:00.000-04:002006-07-18T14:23:27.900-04:00

moved to http://sweetawakenings.blogspot.com. tired of updating two all of the time. will merge the two fully later.

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I’ve always liked jazz. It’s a form of music as comfortable in Carnegie Hall as it is on the street corner. Jazz, she has no pretensions, no bias, no prejudice. She’ll play for you in a smoky night club, she’ll play for Presidents and Popes and for the poor little girls living in basement apartments with five brothers. Jazz is loud, dissonant at times and experiential. Jazz is a beautiful mess.In

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here are some recent pics. i thought i'd like to document some "before" pics.... let's see where i am in eight weeks!

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You Should Weigh 140If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!How Much Do You Weigh?

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...There was no other choice now. I had to go home, had to be alone, had to go into the cave.When i got home, i stripped down to my underwear and took a long look at myself in the full length mirror by the side of my dresser. I squinted, trying to recognize the girl i used to be, looking hard for the size 10 pants and size small dress shirt.I couldn’t see her, i couldn’t find her in that mirror.

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two things bear mentioning today:I had dreams about girl scout cookies last night. I had dreams I was swimming with some girlfriends in Lake Superior and thinking about Samoas - gooey caramel, coconut and dark chocolate goodness. As I came out of the water, I asked a fellow 5K Trainer if it would be alright to eat some cookies. "No", she screamed. "Get back in line." I don't know what I was "in

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It turns out that this journey of truth and self-discovery and changing bad habits is hurling me towards a startling conclusion: I. Like. Myself.I found myself pleasantly surprised to pose for pictures yesterday, excited to document my “before” status and looking forward to my “after” status. I was even coming up with my own ideas for poses in pictures. I gathered the girls, and went to the steps

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i thought this was a bit harsh, but hey, sometimes i need a a kick in the pants."Deal. With. It. One way or the other. Either enjoy your body as it is, whatever size it is, or put down the french fries -- and double bacon cheeseburgers and extra-large milkshakes and entire pies -- and do something about it. Either act like you really believe that you are “sexy succulent” or “fat-tabulous,” or

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I had a great day yesterday! Instead of driving to "The Italian's" to hang out, I walked! When people would ask, how far away is The Italian, or the Momma or the Old Dog, I would always say "within walking distance". Always, always, always in the back of my mind I would think, "I should do that soon. I should walk to (fill in the blank) next time."... but i never did it. UNTIL TONIGHT.Wooh-hooh!

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...and so, I've been procrastinating from the updates. Last week, I procrastinated, in large part, due to a huge hormonal surge that caused me to look at everyone and everything as though they were a chocolate bar. Nothing was safe – neither man nor dessert. While I didn’t act on my blinding hormonal urges to climb on top of any male within throwing distance, I certainly ate a lot of chocolate. A

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it hardly seems possible, but it seems that i have gone without sugar since sunday afternoon @ 3pm. that makes it, let's see...115 hours since i had even one drop of sugar or caffeine. and, you know what? i survived. i didn't even turn into kendra-zilla. life continued, friends still called and those little hershey kisses are still in my night stand in the event of a hormonal emergency.on the

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After getting home from the gym last night & feeling pretty darn good, I decided to clean my room, do some laundry, catch up on correspondence, make a few phone calls, empty the trash and cook a really great dinner. I was on fire! My enthusiasm lasted until about 9pm when I totally crashed & passed out head-first into my Cosmo magazine, waking several hours later in a very strange position. At

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fat. too fat. layers of protection covering the woman i am inside, insulating me from heartbreak and really experiencing life. i have to make a choice – will i choose to be impenetrable or will i choose to shed these outer layers, preparing myself to love? unbelievably powerful fear that i am not who i was created to be. how can god, who gave me all of this beauty, love me after what i’ve done to

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so far, so good! no major temptations today, only a slight headache as i continue my sugar-detox, and enjoy every bite of food.some observations- don't really like the go lean, much prefer the go lean crunch- don't really like whole food's soymilk. prefer trader joes or silk- silk soy milk really fills me up (probably not healthy, but at least is organic)- don't really like veggies. have no idea

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no cookies!no candy!no caffeine!good job, kendra lynn! (apparently, i'm going to be my biggest cheerleader!)dinner was a bit on the heavy side - 5 layer dip from Trader Joes (1.5 spoonfuls and chips), a Chicken Burrito and a HUGE glass of chocolate soy milk (had to fight those cravings, baby!). will try to do better tomorrow. i wasn't even hungry after the dip and the soy milk, but i got nervous

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just threw a chocolate bar into CoWorker's cubicle because i felt it was taunting me. seriously.

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just resisted chocolate urge by eating strawberries and drinking mint flavored water.

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two more small victories to celebrate: i got up early enough to eat breakfast, and packed a lunch of chicken, red peppers, cucumbers and strawberries.seriously, my body isn't going to know what to do with all of this good stuff. here is what would have happened on a normal day.- get up too late to eat- grab something from vending machine, or eat leftovers from the night before, or drive through

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victoriesno sweets today, even though they were brought to my homeno pop today good breakfast, even though i was running lategood lunch, cooked it at work!what i'd like to do better tomorrowno eating after 7:30pmarise early to eat breakfastwalk or go to curvesdrink more watereat a better dinneri really, really want some hersey kisses with peanut butter, but i'm writing in here instead. really,

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so far, i haven't taken the proper preparation to be utterly successful, but it's a busy enough monday to keep me from "bored" eating.this morning, i awoke late. so, i ate a banana during my sales meeting, followed by a zone bar. just this side of an hour ago, i thought i was full. no way am i full right now!just heated up a country veggie pie by amy's organics, grilled a chicken breast and cut

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i'm starting a "new way of eating" today.not a diet, just a change of habits.if i put it here, it feels official.the whatgo easy on the carbsskip desserts during the weekno sweetened sodamake activity a priority (walking and curves)the whybecause of my sister's wedding in augustbecause of my camping trip in julybecause i want to run a 5k in julybecause i want to feel worthy enough to dreamthe how

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