so far, i haven't taken the proper preparation to be utterly successful, but it's a busy enough monday to keep me from "bored" eating.

this morning, i awoke late. so, i ate a banana during my sales meeting, followed by a zone bar. just this side of an hour ago, i thought i was full. no way am i full right now!

just heated up a country veggie pie by amy's organics, grilled a chicken breast and cut up some strawberries for lunch. to drink, i have a bit of a treat - sparkling water (mint flavored) with lime juice & limes.

i'm eating foods i enjoy, but i haven't prepared myself for success. tonight, i'll run home before book club, clean like a mad woman and (hopefully) prepare something decent to eat for myself before the girls get there. if not - should i just wait to eat @ 9pm? or eat while they're there? this "new way of eating" is something i don't want to broadcast, so i'm not really sure. and, i don't know why it bothers me so much anyway. AAACK! i hate my pride.

i told mike on saturday, and of course anner & kater know. mike gave me some good advice - he said - "if you really try and really dedicated yourself, and nothing happens; then you know this is the way god made you. this is the way you were meant to be.... and then... it will be easy to embrace yourself, heavy or not." LOVE THAT GUY.

no scales.
no counting.
no obsessing.

just good sense
eat good foods. exercise regularly. skip the sweets.

i really want this time, this way to work. lord, give me strength & wisdom & industriousness.